Today has been a crazy day. Filled with the stress that comes with being a Mom of 3, caring for a household, and working part time with my children present in the office. Kids were fussing because it was naptime and I was nearly done with my work... I failed to print two copies of the invoices I just had done and had already closed out the computer. Frustrated... Because it would take much longer to restart the computer, then it would to just copy them on the scanner, one by one. ( I had already stapled each invoice to their order.) Grr. Jaxon is screaming because I had forgot his bottle and he was refusing his cup. Lukas was constantly at my feet, and just not helping... Finally done!! And then I could not get the lock to open. Our office door has been acting up and occasionally I cannot get it to unlock from the inside. I also remembered I don't even have my key to lock up! (Jaxon is still screaming.) I call Derek and he comes to my rescue.
I get home change the boys, fill Lukas's sippy cup, and get Lukas in bed. Then just as I start to feed my sad, oh so very tired baby, I then realized I have to pee.
Neglect of ones self is VERY common with motherhood. So here's my list.... the good and the "FUN"
*getting so caught up with the duties of the day that you don't realized you have to pee until you are forced to stop and sit down a moment.
*getting dressed for me is not a common thing these days unless I know I'm going somewhere, and people I know will see me. (I'm mean really just another thing to do)
*wearing my glasses more often then my contacts that my eyes now scream at me when I've worn them too long on the days I do.
*going sometimes until lunch time and then thinking... oh yeah, i didn't eat breakfast.
*bathing the kids and then being too tired to bath myself.
*haha, being kissed many times during the day by 4 handsome boys!
*hearing the word Mommy more times than i can count
*never being 100% clean... get out the shower.... 2 minutes later... spit up, boogers, or dirty hands.
*laughing so hard until I cry over silly little boy comments
*watching cartoons
*diapers
*stop fighting please
*give me a hug please.... so I don't cry
* falling asleep in rocking chairs
*not brushing my hair until after lunch
*looking at pictures from baby 1 and on.... and all they are, are of the kids..... Where are mommy or daddy? behind the camera
*catching throw up (much easier to clean up then when you let it get to the floor)
*kids wanting to cuddle
*drawings of love to Mom
*being their ONE they want.... the one that makes them feel better
*feeling like playing hide and go seek and not telling them
*wishing they were grown up already
*feeling like they were born yesterday
* wanting them to stay your baby forever
*have your worst fear be losing or harm coming to them
*proud to be their mom, then some days wondering how i can be better
*wanting to remember every moment, then being too tired to document it, or too busy
*then days when you can't believe how bad your memory has gotten
There are many more.... I might write some more later... Sorry this is so raw... too tired to edit
Kids are napping and I think I'll try to do that too
Being a Mom is the hardest yet best thing ever. I love you Deven, Lukas, Jaxon, and any other baby if we are blessed with more. I'm tired most of the time, but your smiles, hugs, and kisses keep me going. Thanks for listening to a mother's random thoughts.
